I’ve been fairly busy for the past few weeks… And my busyness doesn’t show any signs of slowing any time soon. So I’m just going to sporadically checking tumblr here and there.
So not much updates will be had for awhile.
First thanks for the messages for my last post, I’ll try to reply soon I just don’t know what to say right now, *hugs* for the support though.
Back to why I’m an idiot. Of course with how I’m feeling right now what is one of the worst things I can do? Visit a hateful site. Now I know I’m pretty…
Yes… That moral sounds like a good one to head. :) And as for that link. I will take it. Because I’m highly intelligent. And I can disprove what ever shit they spout. So won’t effect me any. Except to pity them. Seriously. I’s pitiful to hate something you know absolutely nothing about.
So all I got to say is… Hang in there and try to find any type of strength you can. :)
lol i love when people say they have insomnia at this is “not sleeping” to them
try staying up 48 hrs or w/e then we’ll talk
How about waking up at noon on Friday, and finally getting to sleep around 7pm on Saturday. Do I qualify? :p
Pride is a huge problem for me. The time I’ve been dependent has done a number on me because of it. I have no idea how to get past that. Everything in me is screaming that I need to do it by myself to prove to myself that I’m not worthless. I wish I could believe others when they say I’m not but that’s all I see in me when I think of my situation.
Right now transitioning isn’t even my biggest worry, it normally is but with what I’m facing it’s just another thing to deal with on top of everything else. Maybe it’s coincidence but she took off for the day or so for family stuff, so I’m alone till tomorrow evening. Maybe it’s fate giving me a window. I don’t know.
I would love to be able to promise I’ll be fine but waking up in a severe panic attack earlier after only a couple hours sleep, then getting another hour or two sleep and waking up to another one. I just don’t know right now. I’m hoping my usual weakness when it comes to this holds out and nothing will happen. I just feel so fucked up right now, I don’t even know if I should take my anxiety pill because half the time it makes me lose most inhibitions and now is not the time for that. It’s the only thing I have though that might help.
Thanks you two. *hugs*
Girl! You are crying out for help as we speak. You just need to accept the help from one of us. I’ve offered my cell # and my skype handle to you. So if you are in a crisis as you are now. Than I would be able to talk to you and offer you advice on how to get through it, or at least cope till you can get the proper help.
Trust me. I know a cry for help when I see it. I did the exact same thing with my skype group friends. And I didn’t accept the help from the one friend who actually did have the means to help me. And because I didn’t accept her help. I attempted taking my own life a few times in the months that followed. I felt trapped. I felt like there was not way out of my hole with out a helping hand up.
It wasn’t till early Jan that I finally accepted her help. And wow… What do you know. I hardly ever get depressed sense. I’ve actually been happy or hopeful for 3 months. I haven’t felt either of those for about 2 years.
All it takes is to swallow your pride and accept the help that others are offering. Because regardless of what you think of your self. It’s not true. Your mind is playing tricks on you. Take it from me. One who’s been through it quite recently.
So please accept help from one of us.
Holy fucking shit. I went to check the page in another browser, the FB hate one in my other post. And noticed a link that for some reason didn’t show up in firefox. It was to the persons own blog. So I made the mistake of clicking on it and what do I find? More fucking ignorance. Also they have…
http://planet-mantis.blogspot.com/2011/11/last-word-on-great-trans-debate.html
Well I tried to reply to her post. But sadly it didn’t post for some unknown reason. Guess because it’s from November of last year I guess.
Though I did e-mail it to her. If you all agree with me. You should all e-mail it to her too. Freaking spam her e-mail till she reads the damn study and stops spouting hatred towards other women. planet_mantis@planetmail.com
But here is what I would of posted.
You use a study about sexuality to prove transsexualism is not biological, but only psychological? O.o
There is no such thing as transsexualality. Unless you are referring to people who change their sexuality from one thing to another. Say heterosexual to homosexual.
Transsexuals don’t transition because they happen get get sexual pleasure from pretending they are female. That’s called autogynophila. And if a male bodied person has that. They don’t get prescribed HRT. Because if one of those individuals happened to transition from male to female. Than they would show signs of gender identity dysphoria. Witch all true transsexual feel. And the only cure for that is HRT, and SRS and FFS with many transsexual women.
And to prove my point. I actually have a scientific study that absolutely proves transsexuals are born in the wrong body.
By showing that dissecting a select number of transsexual brains, and that of cisgender female brains. Shows that they are chemically the same.
http://jcem.endojournals.org/content/85/5/2034.full
Though if you ask my opinion. You won’t even bother with this 100% scientific study, or you won’t understand or read it all the way through. But if you do want to read it. Just go down to the results and discussion part of the study. Because that’s were the proof and truth lays.
So you’re argument is mute. Sorry you lose.
And on a side note. I wish I could give birth. I wish I had to suffer from PMS once a month and have to menstruate. Because that’s all part of being a woman. Unless you happen to be one of the unfortunate few, like myself.
So please do all of humanity a favor. And get off your soap box. And come join the fight in equality. >.<
6’0” (Like 184cm or something)
5’0” goddammIT
5’7” ;-; I wanna be taller
I’m like 5’9”… maybe 10”…
I wanna be shorter. ;-;
5’6” and wish to be shorter errday
Let’s cut off our legs together. :0
At least you’re not 6’1” Karla… And for some reason I’ve lost 2” in height sense I was about 19 to now… Probably spine issues. O.o
I would really like to be shorter. About your height karla… But I would do any drastic surgery to accomplish that.
Honestly I don’t know if this would fall under that and I’m not really in the mood to check. I’ve been having memory issues lately due to my anxiety meds I think. Especially doubting what terms apply to what. Going to do a read more for this anyways.
Girl! You’ve got to get over this self hatred. I know. I was just as despised with myself in Dec, just as much as you despise yourself right now.
Though my reasons for my self loathing are different, they are on the other hand easy fixes. At least that’s what people keep telling me. And honestly I have to start listening to them, or I’m just going to do something horrible to myself. You need to listen to others advice about yourself as well.
Honestly… Your problems aren’t as insurmountable as you make them out to be.
For your weight issues, you’ll have to start eating about 6 small meals a day instead of three big ones. For people unlike me with not so high metabolisms. You have to stay a bit hungry when you eat so your body starts to eat your fat.
Also if you excessive with just cartio wise you should be able to loose that quit easily. But it will take time, and you can’t expect instant changes.
And btw… You look more appealing the happier you are, and visa versa.
And if you want. I can be your trans guide if you send me an ask, asking for either my text number or my skype. :) I’ll be here to help you out of crisses, as long as I’m not in one at the moment, and to help with trans issues.
And you should of just been ecstatic about your gf bringing you flowers. She obviously picks up on your feminine side or she wouldn’t of brought those for you in the first place. And it’s also obvious she cares. :)
If the world knows who Joseph Kony is, it will unite to stop him. It starts here.
Watch the video: Kony 2012
Kony2012.comSeriously guys, this is important. Go watch the video and spread the word.
This was worth my 30 minutes. Go watch it. Even if you don’t want to spend money, spread the awareness.
